Lately I’ve been getting everything together so I can go back to school in the fall. It turns out I have like two classes that transfer out of the sixteen that I took in North Carolina. I was going for Interior Design before, so I wasn’t expecting a lot of those classes to transfer, but it’s hard not to feel like I wasted my time since they don’t count for anything at this new school in Georgia. I also have to take the SAT this summer - like a seventeen year old trying to get accepted into as many colleges as possible - because of my laziness, lack of planning, and indifference in high school. I could slap my high school self for so many things.
Despite those things though, there is a lot that I’m looking forward to about being a student again.* For one thing, I can’t wait to get up in the morning with a schedule. Some structure. If I don’t have structure, I am an absolute mess. It turns out that I only appreciate my free time when I don’t have so much of it. I’m also really excited to learn some things. In my earlier school years, I did the cramming and memorizing necessary to get a good grade. I retained hardly any knowledge and completely missed the point of homework and tests. Now I have this thirst for knowledge and I can’t wait to learn because I want to know. I am most excited about my major - Art Education. I am unbelievably indecisive, so choosing something that I was going to do for the rest of my life was HARD and took a lot of thought (like, a year of nothing but thought). I am going to study art education because Jeff told me to imagine what I could have fun doing, no matter how much I got paid or how hard I would have to work to get it. I over think everything, so after he put it so simply, I realized that teaching kids to make things and appreciate art would probably make me happier than any other job ever could. I am pretty darn excited about that.
In other news: blueberries have been turning my milk blue every morning. I like it. Jeff and I go through more granola that I think is normal.
*The way I talk about “going back to school” makes it sound like I am a senior citizen who is going back after about 40 years, but I am still very much college aged. Just going back after two years of community college and one year of taking a break to be eligible for in-state tuition/figure out what I want to study now that I am a married lady.